So here’s the situation: we’ve been dating for over four years, living together for three years. A week after we began dating, he told me he loved me and knew we’d get married someday. I felt the same. Since then we’ve always talked about it – where we’d get married, where we might live when we do, what pets we might have etc etc etc. All talk, all the time. He’s been dropping hints that he’s going to propose for years now – having me describe numerous times what kind of ring I’d like, letting me know that he’d like to talk to my father about it beforehand – two years ago we even went to see a priest because we are members of different churches and we always said we’d like to talk to a religious official to discuss how marriage would work for us (what church we could get married in, how it would work raising kids etc). This was something we said we would like to do before we ever got engaged so naturally two years ago when he arranged for us to see the priest I thought the proposal must be coming. But no. Since then, every time we go on holiday, I think it’s going to happen, every time we go to my home, I think he’s going to talk to my father.

My boyfriend’s in the line of business where he takes bookings years in advance, so if he intended to marry me any time soon, he would need to make sure he doesn’t take on any business for that time. Today he told me that he’s doesn’t see us getting married for at least another three years and when I became upset about this, he claimed he couldn’t understand it because in his mind he has never once implied we were going to get engaged soon, or married any time in the next few years.

My bf is a really good person, and I know he would never knowingly mess me around or toy with my emotions – but that’s exactly what he’s doing. He promises that a proposal is coming some day and that it’s only me he wants to be with. But because for years I’ve thought the proposal was just around the corner, I’ve got this sinking feeling in my stomach that makes me think of ordering a meal in a restaurant and waiting for it for hours and hours, so long that when it finally does come, you simply can’t enjoy it because you’re too upset about how long you were kept waiting. That’s how I feel the proposal will be when it finally does arrive. There’s something about waiting and waiting and waiting that feels like a rejection – but my boyfriend simply can’t understand this.

He has a fair bit of money saved away, more than enough for a ring and deposits for a wedding, but he says two years isn’t enough time to plan a wedding and save all the money we need. I feel that if we got engaged, both our parents would step forward to help us out. I’ve never cared about having a wedding – I don’t need anything lavish anyway.

It just feels like he’s dragging his heels and it’s hurts. If he had said from the beginning that he never wanted to get married, that would be fine. But he’s talks about marriage and our future almost every day and this constant waiting and talking hypotheticals is starting to get to me so much.

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